Tag Archives: hate

I hate sex

Posted on May 5, 2011 by MyClandestineLife

I hate our culture’s obsession with and acceptance of it. I hate that getting pregnant before getting married is glamorized. I hate how accepted it is. Revered, even. I want to slap people in the face, make them realize how … Continue reading →

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P!nk – Perfect

Posted on April 30, 2011 by MyClandestineLife

I liked the song, but it was getting overplayed. Then I watched the video. (I wish the first 12 seconds of the video didn’t exist…I didn’t need to see that.) Reading or watching things very rarely makes me cry, but … Continue reading →

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Psychologically Incompetent

Posted on March 29, 2011 by MyClandestineLife

I’m angry, I’m sorry. I’m angry at God, myself, and me. I hate the physical pain I’m in, and I hate that I can’t get past it to do menial, boring things like a lot of people can. I hate … Continue reading →

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Anger

Posted on December 2, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

I am so irritable right now. I feel like cutting to get myself out of this mood because I hate how I treat other people when I am like this. I snap at them for little things. I’m argumentative. I’m … Continue reading →

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Guilt

Posted on August 12, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

“Stop it, you’re disgusting.” “You deserve to gain weight: look at how you’re eating.” “You’re nothing but a big, fat pig. “I hate you.” As I began to binge, the first negative thought hit my mind. Then another and another. … Continue reading →

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I hate myself and my lack of control.

Posted on August 11, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

Why tempt me with something that’s just going to be taken away within a week? I just had a near-binge experience, but it may as well have been a binge. I just consumed a bit over 500 calories and I’m … Continue reading →

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Why can’t I be skinny?

Posted on July 17, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

I hate my body. I hate it hate it hate it!!!!sa sfsdfasdfkajs;dlkfjwoeijfdakjshdfkjbnsdkjlaefwihjadfskliha Grrf. I’m frustrated. Why can’t I just be content with what I have? Why do I need to be skinny? Who even cares if I’m skinny? It’s not … Continue reading →

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135 lbs.

Posted on June 12, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

I don’t really care that much if anyone reads this or not, I just need to let off some steam: I guess I just came on here to complain about how fat I am. I am officially 135.0 lbs now … Continue reading →

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Lethargic update.

Posted on April 6, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

I don’t really feel much like writing – in fact, I’d rather be sleeping. Nevertheless, I feel this strange nagging obligation to update every few days. Here it goes… My depression has been quite prevalent in my life lately. It’s … Continue reading →

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Withdraw.

Posted on March 30, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

Sometimes I just want to withdraw from society, college, and life. I want all of my stresses to disappear and be able to start with a clean slate. I just don’t seem capable of handling this anymore. I’m sick of … Continue reading →

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