Tag Archives: guilt

Psychologist tomorrow

Posted on December 1, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

I see my psychologist tomorrow. I’m not sure if seeing her is really helping or anything. It seems like we usually go over the same issues. My self-injury has increased in frequency, but it never feels as if it is … Continue reading →

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Guilt

Posted on August 12, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

“Stop it, you’re disgusting.” “You deserve to gain weight: look at how you’re eating.” “You’re nothing but a big, fat pig. “I hate you.” As I began to binge, the first negative thought hit my mind. Then another and another. … Continue reading →

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Day 1 – under 1000 calories

Posted on June 15, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

Hopefully I won’t have to update later this evening. Today has gone well compared to yesterday. I’ve barely eaten anything (2 fiber supplements, 30 grapes, 1 apricot, 1 slice of watermelon = ~150 calories) and my depression isn’t that bad. … Continue reading →

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Idiocracy.

Posted on January 13, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

The whole drunk incident got me thinking, so yesterday I wrote this about my feeling, interpretations, and concerns: guilt – what could I have done differently? anxiety – did I do the right thing? is he [Jacob] okay, emotionally that … Continue reading →

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Today was…interesting.

Posted on December 19, 2008 by MyClandestineLife

I can feel a major depressive swing coming on. Almost all of my friends have already left campus, including my Jacob. I didn’t even get to say “goodbye” because I was meeting with two professors. A couple weeks ago, my … Continue reading →

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