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Tag Archives: hate
Perfection.
I don’t often blog about perfection, or even worry myself with it. But if I was perfect I would… be in control not have any scars weigh less be beautiful have an amazing boyfriend have a 4.0 GPA be disciplined … Continue reading
Drunk consequences.
Okay, well, in my last weblog I talked about how my friends were drunk. The one that was plastered wound up not going to the hospital and he is okay today. Jacob is fine too. Ryan, the idiot that provided … Continue reading
You know…
You know, I don’t hate myself as much as I usually do right now. I don’t know why; I should be upset.Why? Because… my back’s been hurting, and it does now I made a “happy” little pain-filled trip to the … Continue reading
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Tagged college, fat, habits, hate, Reynaud, Reynaud's, Reynaud's syndrome, sleep, weight
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Short version of my last post (written circa February 2008)
Sometimes I desperately wish I had someone I could lean on, who would hold me tight when I’m having a difficult day, who would love me even when I’m cranky, who would care for me through everything. I often repel … Continue reading
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Tagged binge, bulimia, cutting, dating, depression, guys, hate, love, purge, relationships, school, selfinjury
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I wrote this a while back…(Feb 2008?) I just found it now while cleaning out some files.
Your Guardian Angel (by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus) When I see your smileTears run down my faceI can’t replace. And now that I’m strongI have figured out,How this world turns coldAnd it breaks through my soulAnd I know, I’ll … Continue reading
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Tagged bulimia, cutting, dating, depression, guys, hate, love, poem, relationships, selfinjury
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I’ve been doing pretty well today. I walked and talked with one of my friends about some of what’s been bothering* me…and that seemed to help. I decided that I don’t “like like” one of my guy friends (or at … Continue reading
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Tagged body, depression, fat, hate, measurements, relationships, selfinjury, selfish, weight
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I hate myself
Yes, I’m in one of those “moods” again. I hate how depressed I get and drag everyone around me down or hate them for being happy. I hate my lack of motivation, my lack of self-worth, my disparaging thoughts. I … Continue reading
I am fat fat fat fat fat fat fat
I hate myself. Right now I am making a commitment to lose 20 pounds. I want to lose this weight within two months, two weeks. That is by the week after New Years (January . If I break it down … Continue reading
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Tagged blood, calories, depression, disordered eating, eating, fat, food, hate, selfinjury, weight
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