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Tag Archives: cutting
Still Relapsing
I’ve been purging for almost eleven weeks now. In about two weeks I’ll fit the DSM criteria for bulimia. (average binge/purge >1x/wk for 3 months). This is taking up too much of my time, and I’m tired. I’ve lost 5 … Continue reading
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Tagged binge, bulimia, college, cutting, purge, relapse, selfinjury, weight
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Months gone by…
…and I’m on here again. Eating has been going well, but lately I’ve been…almost…wanting to get back into restricting. I feel too big, even though my friends keep telling me I’m skinny. They’re envious of me, yet I want to … Continue reading
Things That Help Me Live
Poetry – writing and reading reciprocal (my friend and I write back and forth)Blood – taste and sight, cuttingPain – experiencing the aftereffectsMusic – for every moodGod – my strength and salvationLearning – experience, wisdom, knowledgeWalking – in a forest … Continue reading
Lying to Myself about SI
I’ve once again come back here for comfort, to rid myself of tension, to share my thoughts/feelings, to process, and to just write. As always, any post on self-injury can be triggering, so read on with caution.I’ve been thinking about self-injury. … Continue reading
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Tagged cutting, death, depression, numb, numbness, Pain, selfinjury, SI
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Where I’ve Been I have been absent from Xanga for almost a month now. I blame it on the two new residents living in my house. Now that I have people to talk to who are close to my … Continue reading
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Tagged boyfriend, cutting, existance, friends, happiness, life, relationships, selfinjury, suicide
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Cutting as a Substitute
I realized something this week: I have been using cutting as a substitute for interpersonal physical contact. Most people my age have had at least one significant other whereas I have not. I will be 20 in a few months … Continue reading
Sleep vs. SI vs. energy
I want to do at least one deep cut, but I’m too tired. I was going to do it last night, but then it got too late and I became tired. Maybe I’m trying to tell myself not to do … Continue reading
Some reasons for cutting
I cut myself tonight, just 25 – 15 right and 10 left. None were deep enough. It leaves me unsatisfied and impatient for more…and the impatience just grows the longer I try to wait it out. Sometimes I find myself … Continue reading
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Tagged blood, Christmas, cutting, Pain, purge, reasons, selfhate, selfinjury, SI
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Anger
I am so irritable right now. I feel like cutting to get myself out of this mood because I hate how I treat other people when I am like this. I snap at them for little things. I’m argumentative. I’m … Continue reading
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Tagged anger, cutting, hate, hurt, irritable, Pain, selfinjury, SI
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Psychologist tomorrow
I see my psychologist tomorrow. I’m not sure if seeing her is really helping or anything. It seems like we usually go over the same issues. My self-injury has increased in frequency, but it never feels as if it is … Continue reading
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Tagged anger, compare, cuts, cutting, doubt, expectations, guilt, judge, psychologist, real, relief, scars, selfinjury, SI, suicide
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