Tag Archives: help

I give up.

Posted on January 4, 2010 by MyClandestineLife

[UPDATE: Frick. My appointment isn’t until the 7th, not today like I thought it was. I am going in to prompt care (maybe) and then to talk to the on-call psychologist.] I give up. I have been trying to fight … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged afraid, anxiety, beliefs, Christian, depression, fear, help, inpatient, psychologist, selfinjury, SI, suicidal, suicide | 15 Comments

Time

Posted on November 19, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

WARNING: The following may be triggering (SI and ED). It is so weird how my memory tricks me sometimes. I thought it had been *maybe* three months since I last cut, but I just checked and it had actually been … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged bulimia, cavities, cutting, death, help, memory, psychologist, scratch, selfinjury, sleep, suicide, teeth, time | 11 Comments

I hate myself and my lack of control.

Posted on August 11, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

Why tempt me with something that’s just going to be taken away within a week? I just had a near-binge experience, but it may as well have been a binge. I just consumed a bit over 500 calories and I’m … Continue reading →

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged anger, anorexia, binge, bulimia, calories, college, control, cutting, depression, eating, eating disorder, fast, fiber, food, hate, help, intake, ketosis, purge, restricting, selfinjury, sleep, tea, water, weight gain | 30 Comments

I talked to my disability counselor and my professor.

Posted on March 5, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

So today, after eating a HUGE (800+ calorie) breakfast which I couldn’t purge due to the fact that I had not time and that I had taken my medications and I didn’t want to mess up the amount absorbed by … Continue reading →