Tag Archives: relationships

Why now? Why am I not feeling better?

Posted on December 25, 2010 by MyClandestineLife

  I “should” be feeling happier, but I’m not. I spent a nice day with my family just hanging out at home. I get to open presents in the morning. Yay for materialism/consumerism. Okay, it’s not all about that. I … Continue reading →

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Posted on April 6, 2010 by MyClandestineLife

  Where I’ve Been I have been absent from Xanga for almost a month now. I blame it on the two new residents living in my house. Now that I have people to talk to who are close to my … Continue reading →

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Bites, Bruises, and Blood

Posted on February 2, 2010 by MyClandestineLife

I should be asleep. Why am I keeping myself up? Why do I do this to myself and then whine about it on the internet? All the days run together. Any happiness is temporary and the same is true with … Continue reading →

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Sleep, College, and Boys

Posted on August 9, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

I want to go to sleep but my body’s not letting me. Or more so, my mind’s not letting me. Its racing thoughts are keeping me awake and alert. I am somewhat physically fatigued, but mentally I feel as if … Continue reading →

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Posted on April 7, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

I feel so apathetic. I just don’t care anymore. I hate how this feels, I hate what it’s doing to me. I have a huge biology test tomorrow, which I should be studying for. I should have started studying days … Continue reading →

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Lazy day.

Posted on March 15, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

Today is a lazy day, we’re not doing much. It’s around noon and we’re still at the inn. All of us (me, my cousin, aunt, and “adopted aunt”) are in some kind of pain. My cousin is PMSing really badly. … Continue reading →

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2 guys + 1 girl = stress

Posted on March 13, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

Now I’m in a bit of a…quandary, shall we say. I have now kissed two different guys (on the cheek) this week. And now they’re out hiking together. Oh boy. Or shall I say “boys”? Allow me to explain my … Continue reading →

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Internal debates.

Posted on March 11, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

Background information: 1 2 3 4 5 Sunday Night As we were sitting on my dorm room floor, Jacob and I were talking and we got onto the topic of internal debates. We both admitted to having one that we … Continue reading →

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How I’ve been doing…really.

Posted on March 4, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

126.4 lbs     I’m going to be completely honest. Life has been difficult for me, and I think it’s mostly my fault. I have created these problems for myself, I have made my life turn out like this, it is … Continue reading →

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Muwahahahahahahaha.

Posted on March 1, 2009 by MyClandestineLife

I held Jacob’s hand. Twice. While we were riding in the car to go bowling and then back from a restaurant. 🙂 It makes me happy. He didn’t withdraw his hand. The first time I was really stressed out about … Continue reading →

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