Posted on August 30, 2006 by MyClandestineLife

I’m going to try to explain this feeling. I feel like I don’t belong on
earth. I am sure of where I’m going after my body dies, and I just
don’t want to live anymore. This life is temporary. I’m not depressed,
I just feel sort of strangely…detached. Don’t take this as that I
want to commit suicide; that’s not what I’m trying to say. I just don’t
care about my life here very much; the only purpose I have to stay
alive is to help show others the way to Jesus. That’s why I am still
alive…

About MyClandestineLife

Formerly: just__one__me of Xanga. I have/had several physical and emotional struggles, and I have found that just writing them down, regardless of responses from others, helps me sort through what I am feeling. I do not wish to advocate negative behaviors, but simply discuss them and help and/or connect with others who are dealing with similar issues. Quick background: I am a female who lives in the United States and was born mid 1990. I have struggled with disordered eating, depression, and self-injury on and off for over 16 years. My most recent bulimic relapse began April 23, 2019. Previous to this one is was late August to late December of 2015.
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3 Responses to

  1. Anonymous says:
    September 1, 2006 at 12:51 am

    “youre given more motivation to shoot for your target once you have a target to shoot for.”
    i suggest you find yourself a target.

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  2. just__one__me says:
    September 2, 2006 at 1:50 am

    what do you suggest I find? everything that is not done to show Jesus to others is meaningless.

    Reply
  3. Anonymous says:
    September 2, 2006 at 2:11 pm

    including protecting their livlihoods?

    Reply

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